This will be a complex post. Get a cup of tea or your favourite beverage. Put your thinking cap on. Then read on.
All my life I have liked 3D shapes and geometry. When I was 5 or 6 I watched an art program on TV, followed the instructions on how to build cardboard pyramids, and built a shelf of them exactly as the program had said. No help from anyone. No written handouts. All on my own. I have spent a lot of time thinking about shapes for many years. I enjoy doing this. Eventually I came to a conclusion that at first seemed egotistical: I had unique abilities to think in 3D shapes. Let me explain. It's partly mathematical. Partly artistic. But I can think up strange 3D shapes and patterns with no effort at all. Right now, this minute, I am thinking of a pattern of coloured circles that have a spiral line going through each circle centre. The circles spin around and the line conducts electricity through all the circles. That was with no effort. That's simple for me. I can get far more complex than that. I often wonder if cases like that guy in the film "Good Will Hunting" exist. For him it was numbers. I am not a number person. I am a 3D shapes person. Imagine his numbers and my shapes - what a combination!
Anyway, the last time that I posted the above on a forum I was sworn at, abused, and called every name under the sun. You would think that I was some criminal. But I don't do any harm to anybody. If I have abilities that are unique then I call a spade a spade. I have already said on these forums one thing that I am NOT good at: mechanical stuff like computer builds. I've had every other response. Your shapes are pointless, bullshit, crap, a joke, you are a liar, conman, idiot, fwit and so on. So if anybody wants to pour shit on what I do I've been there and done that. The fact that after such abuse I still maintain that I have such skills must surely show that I am serious. And the other thing that I get: no, I am not on drugs, shrooms or anything else. In fact I have never taken any drugs whatsoever. I don't smoke. I don't drink. Some of you may know the post that I am referring to: it was on the overclockers computer build forum: I have a supercomputer brain so what to do with it or some similar title. If anybody there btw did abuse me then I will accept all apologies.
So I finally come to the technological point. I can't draw. So drawing my shapes is out. Maybe there's a programming language that would enable my shapes/patterns in 3D to have a reality? I think that a 3D program even maya might be too simple. The only way could be with programming and a library. I am not a programmer. But I could learn it. Then there is the aspect of doing something. Like I said on the overclockers forum I'm open to anything. Use me. By my age I haven't got long. I reckon that I would be good at imagining atoms, cells, chemical stuff. My shapes move and change in complex ways, often using particle effects. A lot of the time I don't know what to call them. They aren't in any geometry book. A funny thing is that I can't multitask. I am the world's worst. With one exception - thinking up these shape patterns.
So here it is. People like Good Will Hunting do exist. Sometimes we don't know what to do with our abilities. But we are open to all technologies that might help.